4/21/11 – Thursdays, oh how I dislike you.
In very simple terms, Thursdays suck. There is nothing that I like about Thursdays other than the fact that they lead to Friday, which leads to Sunday, then Monday, then my wonderful feel better Tuesday. Thursdays are just hard.
I woke up this morning and drug myself out of bed. Well, to be honest Percy’s barking at Stella was driving me crazy and I couldn’t lie in bed and pretend I felt ok any longer. Time to medicate. I popped some anti-nausea meds and fixed some breakfast. It was then time to get ready and head to the cancer center to get my port de-accessed.
Jen drove me to have my port de-accessed this time. It was my goal to stay awake the whole time. It is very hard to stay awake on Thursdays. Once my port is de-accessed I get very tired. I stuck to my goal and stayed awake until I got home. I then freed Percy from his baby gate prison and tried to watch a little television. Television wasn’t doing it for me and I couldn’t fall asleep. I decided to put in some chair time. Chair time always makes me feel better.
Around 6:00 I called it a day and wandered back inside to try to fall asleep. My usual Thursday night ickiness was starting to set in. The feeling of extreme fatigue, nausea, and gross throat. I guzzled some of my medical mouthwash but it can only numb my throat so much.
Todd made it home and we cooked some dinner. Afterwards I have just tried to survive. That is basically my game plan for each Thursday – just survive it. If I can make it through Thursday I can make it through anything. So, now I am sitting on the couch drinking a glass of wine convinced that it is actually helping my throat or at least numbing my senses a little which I consider a positive. I’m very tired and slightly emotional but I’m surviving. This whole treatment thing is getting harder but I’m half way finished so I can handle it.
If I could have anything to eat I would like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and something cold to drink. My song of the day is “Defying Gravity” by Glee. “Some things I cannot change but until I try I’ll never know.”
Night y’all!
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